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I think every “renewal process” goes through this (at least, I hope so…), where the renewer believes they have it all figured out, and before they even get started, they run into some kind of epiphany, and they get set back to square one.

The thing is, there’s a difference between getting sent back to square one because of a setback, and being sent back because you somehow saw that clear line of vision for what it is you need to do. A setback is something like an obstacle in your way – something you weren’t expecting and just blocks everything, and now you have to plot your way around it, or (more often) turn around and start over. You’re angry and upset, disappointed and frustrated and you seriously consider tossing your hands in the air and saying “Forget it! I’ll do something else.”

But the epiphany thing is awesome. It’s like, suddenly, you see. Wow, I can’t explain it. And it’s not that the obstacle you’ve run into (or are about to run into) suddenly becomes something that wants to destroy your efforts – it’s something that’s just there. And you’re so happy that you’ve figured it out that you just turns around and race back to the beginning, because you’re so eager to start on the thing you’ve just figured out.

Guess where I’m at?

Yeah, I’ve had my setback. But it’s more like a setback with an epiphany. I can’t really explain it right now, but I’m so excited about it that I had to stop what I was doing to tell you about it. Right now, it’s a ton of things in a jumble, and I need to sort them out – but I’m feeling right now like when you’re working on a really hard crossword puzzle, and you stumble on the “cheating solutions” that they hid in the middle of the book. However, the “solutions” in my head aren’t organized by number and placed in order yet. But the answers are there – I see them. I just have to get ‘em sorted a little more before I can share.